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4.19.2002



Standing up in a Bring You Down World

I tried to show my friend I cared.
I was told I wasn't cared about.
I tried to show my friend my side.
I was mocked and made fun of.
But you know what?
It didn't hurt.
Because you know what?
I don't care about me.
My friend is still hurting themself.
My friend still doesn't care.
But I have had this friend for a long time.
And I refuse to stop caring.
They can mock all they want.
And laugh all they want.
But I won't stop caring about them.
I won't stop caring out everyone.
Whether we've met or not.
Whether they judge me or not.
I care about them and how they are doing.
What they are thinking.
What they are drinking.
I won't stop trying.
I won't give up.
They'll be in my prayers.
And I will continue to care.

This week has been rough. I've been through a lot emotionally. I've gained a lot of respect for one of my friends, Abe, that I really haven't gotten to hang out with in a long time. I've learned a lot about one of my friends, Chuck, who I thought I knew, but now I know there's a lot more to know. I want to thank one of my friends, who sent me an e-mail and I don't know if they want their name revealed, for sending me your thoughts. Although I'm not sure if I agree, I respect your opinions and appreciated them very much. And I've added someone to my prayer list, yes you Dave. I don't care if you mock me. I don't care if you hate me. I don't have that in me, so I will not retaliate. I say God bless you and I pray that whatever bad thing it was that happened to you can be resolved. I pray that you'll see that alcohol might not be the answer. I pray that some day we might even become friends. And I want you to know this: I'm a very easy going guy. But I have strong beliefs on certain issues. I am also very willing to discuss those issues and I love debate. If you disagree with me, you don't have to post that I'm a "f******* idiot" on someone else's site and mock me on your own. You can talk to me, IM me, e-mail me, whatever and I'd be happy to discuss it with you.

Have a great weekend everybody.